:::: Tagged Up ::::

I didn’t know, what is it that two of my blog friends, Audrey and Joolz asked me to join in this game created by them, named The Tagging Game... where i need to list 10 things I wanted to do after school, and then I need tag like 5 people have a blog dat joins this game, If you are tagged the second time, there is NO need to do this again.Lastly, and most importantly, HAVE FUN DOING IT ...

Ok, if that’s what the game needs to get it going, fine...
10 things I wan to do after school:

(i) Get my hair straighten (as a test) and my face “polished” to perfection...
(ii) Holiday for a week at my New York loft with my Malaysian friends, and maybe to my foster family’s mansionnette and with my Velvet 12
(iii) Celebrate “freedom” with my Velvet 12 by having a fairytale-themed prom party in LA
(iv) Learn to drive and take international lisence
(v) Maybe find a work (occupation) to do...
(vi) Enter drama and D&T (design and tailor) classes
(vii) Have my PHILOSOPHIC blog maximised to100 posts, long ones...
(viii) Go for a 2-day nonstop shopping spree on designer clothes (after begging my foster dad to give the money to spend)
(ix) Sell one of my luxury cars to be donated for the unfortunate ones in warstrucked countries
(x) Have a complete personality makeover, so I can be a better, more positive, and more hearty person...

As for the five peeps to tag, I don’t think I have enough blog-peeps, but I’ll just list them anyway...

i. Audrey
ii. Joolz
iii. A.Shenigans
iv. Freddy
v. Jazlyn

Well, that’s it, then... Note that this is the shortest and fastest post and the LEAST PHILOSOPHICAL post I have ever posted, so appreciate it okay... Apocalypso out...

:::: the power of tolerance ::::

This post you’re reading now is specially typed for me, and for anyone who think that they should be associated with the topic… tolerance, acceptance, and open-mindedness… the qualities that should be inside everyone’s personalities… you need to accept people for who they are, you need to tolerate with people that just hurts you constantly (be it physically, mentally or your heart) and you need to always be open-minded and positive towards everything in life… Therefore I would need to apologise for my last post that is filled with the most negativity in this blog, as I realised that my reason of writing this blog is to spread positivity, not anger and negativity… However, although I have apologised for my negative thoughts I had put in my last post, that doesn’t mean I’m going to delete it… but I’m going to use it as a post to remember, a post that revealed how weak I am towards pressure and I’ll use it as a motivation to be more tolerant and to be more patient…

Co-related to my last post, I have screamed and shouted all the negative effects intolerance has brought. It shows by not being tolerant to your surrounding, you might feel pressurised. Yes, it might seem like it’s your girlfriend’s fault for accusing you of something you didn’t do, and it may seem like it is your friend’s fault as he is the one who should be blamed for the fiasco he went through with his boyfriend, and yes, some people just wouldn’t know that they are causing major noise pollution by singing so out of tune, plants and animals die out of suffocation, but it’s us who need to be patient and be more open-minded about things…

What does tolerance bring to our lives and the others? It brings total goodness and positivity of course, as being tolerant to others helps us to understand what they are going through… Understanding people’s condition helps us to look at ourselves further and deeper which in the same time brings us to accept them, knowing that everyone has problems of their own and by us being intolerant to them, will just cause them to feel more tension and stressed out of their problems and themselves… therefore as a human being that have emotions to feel and brains to think, we should be tolerant to everyone as well as understanding their problems because by being a tolerant person, you’ll be liked and you’ll be understood by them too and you’ll be a better person towards everyone and even to yourself…

:::: damn annoying brats that won’t leave you alone… ::::

Have you felt so annoyed and angry at once? I bet I have… that’s my reason of typing this post… imagine you having a fight with your girlfriend, on phone from a long distance relationship, with screaming and frustrations, then came the incoming phone call from your best friend who is gay from the same place with your girlfriend went through a fight through phone with you, and then the matters just got worst as your best girl-friends group up and make a prank ‘do you know who I am’ joke call, while being tremendously babbled and nagged by your mother and then your siblings came asking lotsa crazy algebra and additional maths and geography, with your annoying neighbour karaoke-ing so bad you can see the glass is starting to shatter?!!!! Arghhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Arghhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!….

That is what I had gone through before turning down on myself, I ran out of home, to catch a breath of peace and calmness. And when I start to think rationally, I went in… and realised that the condition is still as hectic as ever… I went to my laptop, put on the MCR songs as loudly as ever, beating the extreme sounds that came from my neighbour’s house, and typed this frustration relieving subject…

How can a woman be so tremendously moody when they’re on their “full moon”? I know, the pain and agony… but couldn’t they just tolerate with the others? Or at least their boyfriend? And why do some friends would just suddenly talk to you for advice after few months of not talking to each other and then blame you for supporting their boyfriend for the fact that they are the ones to be blamed? And why would some friends just don’t understand the tone of annoyed and anger when they called you and just understand that you need some time alone? And why the f***ing hell would the stranger-stalkers keep on bugging your asses off on your phone knowing that you don’t want to be bugged? And why couldn’t people just know that they are bad singers, so bad everyone would just kill themselves in order to make them stop? Why oh why????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Annoyance! Hatred! Anger!!! Arghhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! As I’m huffin’ and puffin’ while writing this post, stamping on my laptop’s keyboard and looking like hell, I know that I should just stop typing now and just go to my pillow and scream… Arghhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:::: forced… ::::

How does it feel, to do something that you don’t want to do? It SUCKS man, it SUCKS!!! I just hate it when I’m asked to do things that I don’t like, especially when I have to like it with what so ever reason… What makes matters worst is; it is my parents that asked me to do it… so I have no power to decline what they want me to do… Well what can I do, I’m still a kid, under my parents’ responsibility… but first and foremost thing that I dislike is doing something without sincerity… or simply called FORCED! That is what differentiates us from doing things sincerely or without a heart at all… When we’re forced, of course we felt tensioned, angry, and mostly insincere… one of the things I hate about people… I’m writing this with rage of being asked to do what I hate most… I’m not gonna tell you what it is because you’ll take me as a childish person; (well guess what? I am and I’m proud of it…)… I mean come on! Give me a break! Give the others a break! Just because we’re kids, or someone “lower” than you it doesn’t mean we have no feelings… we do and we hope that you people that just like to do things for us without our knowledge would at least care… Yes, you might be our dad, our mom, aunts, uncles, gramps or whoever, but we here matter too. Have you ever been forced to do something? I bet you have… and I bet you didn’t like the feeling don’t cha? And when we do the “things”, it will either end up horribly, incomplete, or still managed to be completed, but we did not feel good doin’ it… Well, what can we do? Ask yourself… and as I am asking myself, I can’t think of any word of positive-ness except ‘calm down’…

Calming down is the best way for you to have temporary (or permanent) control over the pressure of being forced… (So that’s how Cinderella did it huh?) By calming your senses, you are able to control your feelings and when you’re in control of your feelings, you will be in control of the situation… Ok; I’m a bit calmed up… (Gosh, writing philosophic blogs like this surely helps you to have control over your feelings huh?)… now when you’re all calmed down, start to think again… if your mind is as mischievous as mine, you’ll get to think of zillions of good ideas and positive–but-negative ways to avoid being told to do what you don’t want to do… I’ll harvest some of mine and juice it up here…

One, to avoid being continuously forced to do ‘It’, you shall AVOID by using all means… like if it has a timeline for example it starts at 8 o’clock in the morning, try to delay it… be it by sleeping (or pretend to do it) and not waking up even if there’s an earthquake or make a crappy but life-saving excuse by saying “I thought it’s 8 o’clock at night… sorry…” when asked why you’re late or didn’t make it…

Two, (this technique is only recommended for people that have creative-critical thinking…) give EXCUSES… give as many as possible, quickly dish out what goes on through your head that is logical enough to be made into a good excuse (note: your parents or family or boss or whoever it is are not stupid, they know you’re dishin’ out excuses… so be smart at serving it to them or it will backfire…).

Three, SYMPATHY… (This technique is recommended for drama royalties or people that have a face like Puss-in-Boots like the one in Shrek) do your face as sympathetic as ever, beg, act, sing, dance as dramatic, as musical and melodramatic as ever just to get votes (sounds like American Idol…) well the difference from AI is, you either be released from the forcing process, or punished for the worst with a red palm-shaped mark on your face… plus, the judges aren’t as tolerant as Paula and Randy and even worse than Simon himself… so before doing this maestrotipical performance, write a script and make sure it’s convincing… (and I mean your performance, not the script…)

And lastly, the most easiest but difficult-est thing to do… using your vocals, brains, and skills of persuasion (this technique, is recommended for people with political nature, debaters or people that know how to persuade a lot) Talk, COMMUNICATE with your forcer, politically reason out your views, dish out the pros and cons of the ‘forcing’, make sure the cons are more than the pros and when they try to disagree, dish out more, as loudly as possible, overlapping their voices and don’t give them any chance of fighting back…

I don’t want to be seen teaching people how to avoid stuffs that you’re forced to do and be a person that always avoids all the time… and I don’t want to watch people being forced to do things that they don’t want to do either… So this is my advice… when you’re asked to do something, make sure you accept it and agreed to all of the terms… Then, set a proper plan, a schedule (if it’s a chore, do it because it’s your responsibility). Another thing, when it is agreed and it’s under your responsibility, execute it… if you are told to do it because you delayed it or you didn’t do it as planned, it is not an order and they are not forcing… it is you who are f***ing lazy to do it until you need to be forced… Therefore I shall not grant you the ability to use my ideas in my previous post to avoid your responsibilities… By the way, the best way to handle forcing is by using the last idea which is to communicate and the better than the best way is by using all of it at once, without doing it too much or too little. But… (When there’s a but, give attention…) only use the communicating stuff on people that can tolerate you… (I wonder if Cinderella used the diplomatic way to the Stepmother, she would be thrown to the dark, slimy, no-fairy-dungeons) because if you went for a cold heartless person to beg for sympathy, to dramatise, or to be diplomatic, it’ll be such a waste… In fact, he or she will double your chores or anything related to what they are forcing you to do… So choose the right ideas, try to avoid using any of the ideas too much and be more tolerant… as by doing this, you can be calmer and be more positive…

:::: when hating yourself is not an option… ::::

Actually, I wanted to name this post as “Hated and Be Hated” like I promised my friend Jessica as I’m going to dedicate this to her, but I don’t feel right about the topic (actually I have no idea of what to write, sheesh, silly me…) so I changed to this one, as I think I have stories to share and ideas to tell… So this is it… when hating yourself is not an option, what do you do? Hate yourself of course, what else? But first, I would like to admit that I also hate myself especially when I just do what goes through my mind spontaneously without thinking; and I would like to apologise to my fellow Christian friends when they had came across the word ”HELLaluiah” from the ending of my first post. I found out that that was very disrespectful and I’m very sorry, as my intentions are just to make it as a joke, not to insult…

Hating yourself, a negative attitude for a better attitude… (Confused? You won’t, just continue reading…) what I meant by saying being negative for positive, is by hating yourself (negative), you’ll end up being a better individual (positive). When we turn to hate ourselves, we’ll go for the inner monologue-ing (Talk inside from your heart? Consciousness? Inner voices? Do you have any idea of what the HELL I’m talking?). Yes, we throw tantrums all over our heart and soul while criticising ourselves inside… and do you realise we dished out negative words to ourselves while doing so? And yes, you do feel better after the “You are so stupid, Why must I be like this, I’m such a goner” process… this is because we are human beings, that have likes and dislikes, that have feelings, that regret over something bad we had done … and if you have a friend that go for outer monologue-ing when he or she criticise themselves, pay attention as they do need it, lots and lots of attention… Like I said, hating yourself IS a negative thing to do, but it turns out to be positive at last… this is because as you hate yourself so much and by throwing those not-so-kind words to yourself, those words can be a big motivational word for you to be better… I mean for example, you keep on saying like “Why must you be so stupid?”, it can help you to be a better, not so stupid person… As long, you continue to be POSITIVE about it… hating yourself is like putting yourself at the end of a pirate ship’s plank… one side is the pirates with swashbuckling swords and the other side is the wavy sea, with tick-tock-sounding alligator waiting to chomp you down (sounds familiar eh?)… This shows that hating yourself can be negative too… that is, if you continue to be a bad egg towards yourself… you should take every critic that you tell to yourself or any from the other source out of your rough endoplasmic reticulum (oops, the epidermis) seriously and very, very positively… For example everytime people ‘critic’ you, you shall say “thank you”, as a form of appreciation of knowing that they care for you and they want you to change to a better person… Don’t take it as a mocking as that will make you angry, moody and feel uncomfortable all the time. In fact, they might be annoyed with it and continue “appreciating” you and you shall say thank them as much as they appreciated you… and as the appreciation process continues, they will feel tired and extremely annoyed, and move away… as easy as th-ank-you…

So what’s the conclusion? Hating yourself isn’t bad, but it’s bad… (Confused again? I am too…sigh). Ok, take it like this… don’t hate yourself too much, and NEVER bring yourself down and NEVER let anyone else do the same… although hating yourself is an optional thing to do but actually we shouldn’t, there are at certain times where we just can’t do anything else other than that… So hate yourself positively and temporarily, and USE EVERY CRITIC AS A MOTIVATION TO BE BETTER, and always be POSITIVE no matter what as when you discover the miracle of being positive, you’ll thank yourself for it… (Awww, don’t flatter me, flatter yourself… hehehe)

:::: when the heart questions… ::::

This very post is dedicated to my fellow friends out there that wished and hoped to change into a better person, not to the worst…Ok, when the heart questions us what to do, why we should do it, or how, is it something that we should take it as it is, or should we think about it before answering to those bugging questions in your head?… Of course when we’re not ourselves, we’ll just follow anything that pops out of our mind right? Well, when you’re “high”, or drunk, angry, confused or just being crazy, we might just follow our instincts because your brain is too stupid too think logically and normally… Your feelings and emotions, a factor that affects the human nature of thinking and instincts…when you’re happy and relaxed, you might be able to think logically and effectively but when you’re not you’ll just go bezerk and follow ‘what the bloody cricket’ stuffs your heart tells you to do…
First thing to do is take the deepest breath you can take (just don’t take it too deep until you die), and release it slowly… Ok, now, when your heart questions you to change yourself, ask yourself and I mean ask your brain, not your heart and think carefully…Are you changing for the better or the worst? Are you capable of changing to be like the one you’re thinking of? Will you be happy and will the others be happy with the change? Will it last forever? Why must the change be done? And the one and most importantly… DO YOU WANT TO CHANGE? I asked you to ask these questions to yourself because it is very crucial for yourself, to know your very own reasons for you to change… and be honest to yourself because it’s you we’re talking ‘bout here not me…and as far as I know, if you’re not true to yourself, you’re just being a hypocrite, lying not just to everyone, but to yourself too. Don’t change because of people that asked you to. And don’t even care about what the others tell, mock and laugh at you, just ignore them and move on… BE TRUE TO YOURSELF… if you’re someone that can’t take humiliation and just can’t take it anymore, just face the person(s) and say this… “F*** OFF!!!” with the most angriest and cynical facial expression you’ll ever have on your beautiful (or handsome) face. And make sure you don’t mingle with the group that didn’t accept you as you are… But, although most of the gang kind off disliked you, there are some that did liked you… and they did not actually hate you, they just hate your attitude, therefore all you need to do is change your attitude… So if you’re ready to change without feeling that you must change for the sake of being in the gang; unless it’s you who wanted it, then change, I bet all of your friends in the gang will do their best to support you until you became totally changed… if they don’t, then leave the gang because they don’t deserve you and before that, make a big finale, a maestro ending by saying the two professional words, “F*** OFF”… as simple as that isn’t it?
However, no matter how much important it is for you to think before making a decision, your instincts matters too… “Listen to your heart”… have you heard of such thing? I’m sure you’ve never heard of “Listen to your brain” right? So, the best way is to do both things, balance the ying and yang of making decisions… and if brains and hearts isn’t enough, think of the spiritual side, where the angels and demons play a part… and by the way, do you know that those two creatural species affects both the brain and heart? Sometimes it takes desperate measures for us to make a change… I mean it doesn’t always go when only you wanted it to happen, as sometimes you do need to change for the sake of others… take an example, you’re in this group, where everyone is stereotypically same and identically identical (whew, such tongue-twisting words!)… and there is no one else that have the same qualities like you that can click with… so the best way is to change so you can at least make good terms with the others… or the best way is to leave the ghastly stinkin’ place so you can be peaceful and happy to be with the others… or another example, you are in a group of perfectionist in this summer camp and you just can’t get along with any of them, but you would need their help and so do they need your help in order to succeed the challenges during the camp, so in order to get that happenin’, you must change… but the grass over there isn’t always greener right? I have no right to tell you to change because like I said, it’s all up to you to change, and change needs sincerity because without it, you’ll be a pretender that hypocritically lies to everyone… By the way, you’re not that desperate to impress everyone aren’t you? If you are, go ahead and change your arse off and never feel comfortable with it, never! And get that feeling till’ you reached that glossy bottom (by means buttered butt) to kiss everyday and spread your pouty lips with it… ‘Nuff said…

:::: HEROES concept towards life now… ::::

Ok, what’s with the fanatic fans of HEROES? What’s so cool about it? And how the heck does this TV-related topic has anything to do with my so called philosophical blog? Too philosophical eh? I’ll show you even TV shows can be philosophic… the concept applied to the Heroes episodes, from one plot to another shows people, ordinary people realised that they had powers, be it the ones that they like, and some just try so hard to hide it (If you know the feeling of being a freakshow, you might as well do the same…). The story starts as Dr. Suresh made this experiment cum project called the ‘Human Genome Project’. In this DNA-related with all the scientific stuff in this project, it shows a few, no, a lot of names of people that are suspected to have gone through another stage of human evolution (not Mitsubishi Evolution, ok?). Then it shows the people in that list and their daily life story and bla bla bla….

In that TV show, there lies people with their unique powers… some with powers like having control of time and space, some having split personalities of their evil sister (oh, poor Nicki…), some with the ability to float in the air, paint the future, heal tremendously no matter how you hurt yourself (gosh, I wish I have that power…), pass through objects, extraordinary memory, copycat people’s powers, read mind, control mind and telekinesis (another power of the mind) and even be apocalypse themselves (kaboooshh!!! another cool factor…) and more and more and more…(what do you expect? It’s a long, long list…) what differentiates them from each other is the fact that they chose to be with the good side or to the dark alleys… and do you realise that most of the powers stated are like those in X-Men? Of course, when it comes to people with powers, they have no other “bright” ideas other than those kinds of powers…

Similar to life on Earth, but different to life Earth, (sigh, this kid’s got the metaphor syndrome didn’t he? Always non stop metaphors…) Yeah, I used a lot of metaphors in this blog, as the use of those confusing inner layered words is what differentiates my blog, from my friends’… by the way, like I said, similar to life on Earth, but different to life Earth, we here have gone through a lot of evolutionary process, if you trust Darwin (Charles Darwin to be more factual), we came from monkeys, primates, gorillas and chimps evolved to this vulgar savages that knows nothing, evolves to vulgar savages that knows something and evolved to bla bla bla to us, Homo Sapiens sp. a human being in urban areas of the world, modernised and able to dress rightly (still, there are people that dressed like those savages on Halloween, sigh)… I wonder, do you even want to be associated with those “uuk eek eek ark ark” sounding animals? I don’t… that’s for sure…

And although we don’t have powers like they do, we know that we don’t need powers to live on life… as the powers bring two meaning towards us, one, it will bring you good stuffs and two, it’ll bring you bad things… in fact we already have the powers those superheroes have… such as having control over people’s mind or also known as the power of manipulation and persuasion… Yes, manipulation and the ability to persuade people to do what we want to do or what we want them to do is already a power inside us, it’s just up to the person whether they know how to use it or not…Yeah, you can’t pass through objects and travel through time and space, but you can have amazing memory, be a copycat and most amazingly be Apocalypse yourself… Yeah, just throw on some tantrums on the rules of the world and break ‘em (not bend it, ok… only I am the rule bender…) and be Apocalypse, ruining peeps lives, ruining the environment, ruining the world, and bellissimo! You’re on your way towards being Apocalypse (although you’re not gonna explode yourself like Peter Petrelli saw himself did and ruin the whole Hero-polis, you’re still one heck of an Apocalypse…) Whatever it is I hope you did not always ask from Him for you to have powers… the reason He didn’t give it to you is reasonable enough and no need for questioning… You don’t need the powers if you can manipulate people, but first you would need to manipulate yourself…You wouldn’t need to wish for powers to transport yourself like Hiro or the Jumpers in Jumper, or orb out like Whitelighters in Charmed when you’re so tired walking to a very long distance, just lie down on the highway (small roads are more recommended), and pray that someone will stop just right with their tyres right by your Adams apple and carry you to where you wanted to go… crazy aren’t I?